My First love

Today I am writing this letter to my first love.... Honestly I dont know who that is.... After all am too young to understand love or maybe I do. But here is the thing

I know its been months or years maybe(after all I dont know who am talking to) since our love Issues came to an end, our so called love affair. I know you loved me. But I thought i loved you too. I know I made you promises. I laugh at myself just thinking about them. I even thought I would marry you.
       I curse the first day i called you baby.... Thats what we were "babies" maybe we were not aware of what we were saying and doing.
        I thought you were the most beautiful girl in the world. Now am sure if I was to see you again I wouldn't look twice.
        I am sorry I have to be this honest to you. But it kills me with shame to think I was ever that naive. They say you never foget your first love. But, you  i wont forget for all the wrong reasons.
      My love, I used to call you, I love you, I used to tell you, forever I used to think. In love I thought I was. A fool I know I was.
          But all that said, I am grateful you taught me things. You taught me how to make her smile, thanks to you I knew how to love, thanks to you am no longer so shy, thanks to you I know when she is sad.  And thanks to you I know what beauty is and thanks to you I know what love is and is not.
      Am glad that you.... Were... MY FIRST LOVE